natural born loser

kayaknya gue ini terlahir sebagai natural born loser merujuk pada teori yang gue dan salah satu sahabat gue (jowhee) buat.
the winners always win and take everything no matter how small their effort.
but meanwhile,the losers always lose and never get anything no matter how big their efforts to get it.
yang namanya pemenan akan selalu menang dan dapet apapun yang dia mau hanya dengan jentikan jemari tangan (istilahnya.
sedangkan sisanya? para loser? ya bakal terus jadi loser yang ngga pernah berhasil dapet apa yang dia mau meski udah trying too hard...
jadi bullshit kali yah yang bilang roda itu muter lah.
idup itu ngga selalu di atas dan ngga selalu di bawah lah.
ah buat gue semua itu omong kosong.
roda itu ga bakal muter kalo ngga ada yang muter, dan klo yang muter cuma golongan bawahnya aja, gimana bisa muterrrrrrrrr????
dan kayaknya hukum rimba tuh berlaku banget deh.
yang sekalinya udah menang akan terus menang.
dan sekalinya jadi si cupuk ya terus aja jadi si cupuk meratapi nasip di pojokan ruangan berdebu sambil mainin sarang labah- labah (*efek dramatisir*).
dan lagi- lagi semua ini merujuk pada sebuah teori tentang keberuntungan.
yeahhh....
yang beruntung yang menang.
yang ngga beruntung ngga bakal menang.
kayak dongeng aja,
ngga semuanya punya fairy god mother.
ngga semuanya punya keberuntungan.
dan gue salah satu yg terlahir tanpa menggondol banyak keberuntungan. stok keberuntungan gue tipis...hahahhaaha..
erhhhhh.....i hate my less-lucky life....

10 things i hate about you quotes

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

please allow me to be sad

in this post i just want to say "please allow me to be sad this time."
i promise.
only this time.
gue janji se janji- janji nya gue sedih kali ini aja.
gue ngga bisa pretend that i'm fine right now.
biasanya gue selalu bisa ngga bersedih.but not this time.
i just want to be sad this time.
and all i want is just a hug.
a big hug that can cure all the pain.
can i have it???

little faith

like i told you before.
like i told anyone else before.
i'm not a positive-kinda-person.
i'm not such an optimistic-kinda-girl.
i'm definitely not easy-believing-things-kinda-girl.
i'm not the girl who believes that love does exist.
or believe that life like fairytale does really exist.
no.i'm absolutely not that kinda' girl.

i'm just a cynical-ordinary-girl who try to keep believing that dreams do come true.
i'm just a realistic-ordinary-girl who try to keep believing that miracles does exist.
even i know that sort of things like miracles and/or dreams coming true is just for princess in fairy tales.
and i'm not a princess.
and my life is tottally not even close with fairy tale.
but indeed, i'm still try to believing.
try to believe miracles does exist and dreams do come true, so an ordinary girl like me can be a 'princess' someday.
maybe not now,
not tommorrow,
not the day after tommorrow,
and not even next year.
but someday.
well. i know there is no fairy tale life like.
but when everythings were crumbling apart, when everythings fall down into a pieces, believing is the only thing we can do. faith is the only way to make us keep standing still.
and now,
i try to put my little faith and try to believe that i can be a 'princess' someday on my own fairy tale.
not now.
not tommorrow.
but one day.