him

i will forget him,

eventually.

i will stop loving him,

eventually.

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I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now, hoping one day you'll fly back to me. Because I think you're worth the wait -- ini kalo kata film smallvile, tapi kalo versi gue -- I may not be the one you love today but I'll let you go for now, hoping one day you'll fly back to me and regret it because you may not be the one i love tomorrow...

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i love you,

that is undoubtedly true.

but,

i want to stop loving you is also indisputable truth.

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beberapa kalimat diatas mungkin sebagian cara gue buat mencoba meyakinkan diri untuk berhenti menyayangi orang yang salah.

yaaa semacam teknik meyakinkan hati bahwa gue harus berhenti menyayangi dia.

well.

i do love him.

but i do want to stop loving him because loving him is hard to do, and being with him is even harder to do.

and i just too tired to be tired...

dari temen, sahabat sampe abang gue ngga setuju.

dari temen, sahabat sampe abang gue ga suka gue sama dia.

dari temen, sahabat sampe abang gue bilang gue buang- buang waktu gue secara dia juga ga bakal bisa bikin gue seneng.

kalo abang gue ngga ngasih gue sama dia,

temen gue bahkan mau sepak kepala gue kalo gue nangis gara- gara dia lagi.

dari nge-hide dia di newsfeed facebook gue supaya ngga terpampang lagi apapun soal dia di home facebook gue,

nge-block MSN dia di MSN gue supaya dia ngga liat gue online dan gue ga kepengen panggil dia,

sampe apus nomer handphone dia *since gue ga hapal jadi gue ga bakal SMS/telpon dia duluan*,

sampe ngarep dia ngga lagi cari gue.

dari mikirin semua yang udah dia laku'in ke gue dengan harapan bikin gue sadar dan cepet- cepet ngilangin dia di otak dan hati gue,

sampe memasukan pikiran- pikiran busuk soal dia supaya gue semakin benci dan semakin gampang melupakannya.

dari nulis soal gue kangen sama dia sampe nulis gue benci sama dia.

sampe secretly hoping he noticed my disappearances, and want me back.

gee, silly me...

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