goodbye

Semua orang pasti pernah ngalamin yang namanya "perpisahan".
Semua orang pasti pernah mengucapkan "goodbye" apapun kisah perpisahan mereka masing-masing.
Ditinggalkan, meninggalkan.
Semua orang pasti pernah merasakan ada sesuatu yang hilang. Yang seolah terpisah, dipisahkan dari diri nya.
Dan semua akan diiringi dengan sebuah kalimat sederhana "goodbye".
Saya ngga tau kata apa yang paling tepat untuk menerjemahkan "goodbye" kedalam bahasa indonesia.
Ntah "sampai jumpa lagi" atau "selamat tinggal" yang lebih tepat. But I go for the second. "Selamat tinggal".

Seperti yang saya pernah bilang,
Everyone has their own story, their own despair, their own miserability. And everyone has their own story of goodbyes.

Saya, terlepas dari saya suka atau tidak, saya mau atau tidak, bahkan saya sadar atau tidak, sudah menjumpai banyak perpisahan.
Best friends became strangers,
Lovers became enemy,
Death relatives.
Dan buat saya goodbye is a grief.
Goodbye is saddening.
Goodbye is bye.
Jadi saya selalu mikir, why is it people call it "goodbye" when there is nothing "good" in a "bye"?
Why people said "goodbye" when all the feelings left is the sadness or mourning?

Sampai tadi saya nonton 'ugly betty' season 4 episode 12. Saya ngga inget kalimat persisnya, intinya "there is something good in goodbye, it's the chance to moving forward and start something new" *ga persis, tp intinya gini..*
And then it suddenly made me think.
All we want in life is second chance of what we do wrong so we could do things differently.
All we usually want is a chance to start things from the very beginning.
Itu juga yang bikin begitu banyak orang yang berharap dirinya just hit by a bus and got amnesia so they could re-do their lives..
We all want a second chance to be better, to live better, to do things better,
And goodbyes are about second chance. About how you moving forward, take a step forward to whatever upon us, and starting over.
Starting the new phase of our life and be good at it. Be better then we used to be.
Cos beside goodbye is a second chance, it is also failure.
And we absolutely don't want to add another failure in our lives..
So we learn to be better,
We do things differently,
We take things better..
We living a life better so we don't need to say any goodbyes anymore..

Jadi, selamat tinggal memang penuh dengan perasaan sesak di dada dan ngilu di ulu hati.
Selamat tinggal juga seolah tidak meninggalkan apapun yang selamat.
Selamat tinggal memang tidak meninggalkan apa-apa..
Karena selamat tinggal memberi kesempatan baru untuk "do things better"..