Michelle Featherstone - Coffee and Cigarettes

rain outside.
pitch black room, only with a light from laptop's LCD.
sitting alone in silence, despite rainy sound outside.
too silent, decided to click iTunes, and play some music.
"coffee and cigarettes" by Michelle Featherstone was my choice. one of soundtrack from a very popular TV Series, One Tree Hill.

I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn't helped me yet
I thought my problems would just dissipate
And all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watched my bad habits get flushed away
I thought that that would keep my head on straight
And all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true
I'm still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit
I must quit
You

I thought that if I didn't go and play
The sadness would get bored and go away
I thought that if I didn't go astray
Then all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true
I'm still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit
I must quit
You

I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low
I thought if only I could try and change
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true
I'm still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit
I must quit
You

I must quit
I must quit
You

and i suddenly realize what i needed was quitting.
quitting rooting for better version of "our" story and start rooting for a new story for a better life...